Sorry it’s been so long since my last posting, but I’ve recently started a new job so my head has been elsewhere, which is a good thing. Being trapped in self pity isn’t a great idea and well, at some point, you have to return to the land of the living. I will also add that diving into work and pursuing professional dreams has helped my plight be somewhat bearable. And, I do the kind of work that is really an act of service, that is, people are truly benefiting and getting better opportunities as a result of my job and my skills and like it or not, I get a lot of pleasure as a result.
So, back to IVF #1 and the new storks, as I like to call them. I mentioned before that in addition to my cyst surplus as a result of our first IVF attempt with Dr. Wonderful, I also received more devastating and shocking news about the state of my uterus. It turns out that one of my ovaries doesn’t even work, doesn’t produce any follicles and quite possibly, A RESULT OF THE SURGERY THAT I HAD WITH THE FIRST DOCTOR. Dr. Stork said to me, “yes, unfortunately when you have an endometrioma removed, a piece of the ovary is cut out and can cause that ovary to stop producing follicles altogether, making it very hard to become pregnant.” Shocked was an understatement of how I felt at that moment, and though I wish I could’ve learned this lesson on something else like a nose job or a botched face lift, I realized at that very moment that I was going to get a second opinion on every single thing from here on out concerning my fertility. I was so angry that I hadn’t been warned of the possible consequences of this surgery, and even though I can’t blame my infertility on this entirely as there is no way to know for sure, had I been told, we may have a very different outcome today…shameful, just shameful.
So we resolve to put the past behind us and start again with a new attitude, new perspective and most importantly, a new stork! In addition to the clumsy follistim pen and lupron, we added menapur the mix, 2 tubes to be exact and now my daily injections are up to three shots before bedtime.